||[Apr. 17th, 2004|06:57 pm]
|||||richard lloyd- heart of gold (cover)||]|
there are two pheasants in the garden- they're a couple and they feed here everyday, and it's sad cos i swear they have more of a life than i do.
i duno what to do. it's ellie's 18th birthday party and i should go, but i can't, i feel too sick to go. but then again, my parents have a big dinner party on tonight and i can't face having them and their (loud) friends in the house and making polite conversation and shit.. chloe's out tonight, but i don't think she's overly keen to hang out with me right now, so i don't think there's a lot of point, plus i don't think i'm up for spending an evening in the town centre with loads of people around. i'd quite like to see sean but then i think we both need a break from each other, after spending so long with each other today/yesterday (and indeed most of my holiday). i don't kno where we stand with each other, i kno we're just friends, and that's all we want it to be, but sometimes i jus remind myself how weird it is. anyway, i don't want to speculate on that. i might jus go for a drive, but i have NO petrol and no money so it might be hard! i think i have just enough to get to the petrol station in bromham, but even that is pushing it cos the light has been on for fucking ages. i couldn't put any in due to the lack of money, which is so frustrating as i have £15, i jus can't get it- i have £5.75 in one account, and fucking £9.90 in the other! i mean i'm a whole 10p short of a stupid tenner :(