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(no subject) [May. 3rd, 2004|12:29 am]
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Which Rock Chick Are You?
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(no subject) [Apr. 26th, 2004|10:55 pm]
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(no subject) [Apr. 22nd, 2004|10:29 pm]
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[mood |sadsad]
[music |hole- violet]

haven't done a lot over the last few days, except see sean, and david who popped round yesterday- with chocolates. bad, bad thing.

(random thought)
i think my top 5 anal cunt titles of all time are...
*drum roll*
in 5th place we have:
You're Pregnant, So I Kicked You In The Stomach
in 4th place:
I Sent A Thankyou Card To The Guy That Raped You
in 3rd place:
I Became A Counselor So I Could Tell Rape Victims They Asked For It
2nd place:
I Went Back In Time And Voted For Hitler
and in 1st place:
You Were Too Ugly To Rape, So I Just Beat The Shit Out Of You

lol, what a pleasant bunch of fellows.

i got a parcel today from anthony. it cost £9.47 to send it to me, and it's basically full of my crap. like my clothes, presents i've given him, and also stupid little things i never thought he'd keep- like this little piece of tree bark, small bits of paper, and some moulding love hearts! it was actually really sad, especially when i saw all the stuff he'd accumulated, and in a selfish way i almost felt a little bit offended when i saw the cd and book i'd bought him for xmas. but i can't blame him, i totally get that this is moving on for him, even though i kno he'll regret v soon not having anything of mine to remember our relationship by. he left a note asking for his stuff too, but i don't want to give him back every single thing back, like all the little notes and pictures he did for me- i'm going to keep that, and literally jus give back what he owned before. i still have cds of his, dvds, and also some tops. i duno if he wants them back, i spose i'd better hunt out all the t shirts i nicked from him and give them tho..
i knew the parcel was from him when i was opening it cos it was his handwriting on the top, and it kind of worried me for a minute whilst i battled with the tightly wrapped cardboard, in case some rabid rats burst out, in a cloud of SARS dust and i dropped down dead. maybe i could do that to his.. lol. i'm not going to post his- i don't have the money to even if i wanted to; i'll jus drop it round. altho thinking bout it, that might not be a good idea. i probably won't see chloe for ages for various reasons, but i spose could give it to darren actually. tho i'm not sure he'd be that civil to me either. lol, everyone hates me! maybe i should post it..
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a song by anal cunt- [Apr. 20th, 2004|10:50 pm]
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i'm living on a land mine [Apr. 19th, 2004|08:27 pm]
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[mood |blahblah]
[music |wildhearts- tv tan]

last cigarette: a week or so ago at sean's- altho i don't smoke, i did jus to spite him cos he had hardly any tobacco left! *hehe*

last kiss: sean, a few hours ago

last good cry: last night

last library book checked out: rushdie- "the satanic verses"

last movie seen: this is spinal tap, laughed sooo much

last book read: probably 'alias grace', at school, haven't read apart from what's on the syllabus- not good for a supposed english lit student

last cuss word uttered: fuck

last beverage drank: blackcurrent and apple squash

last food consumed: some tomato pasta

last phone call: my sister- trying to teach her guitar over the phone!

last tv show watched: trisha, lol

last shoes worn: my *lovely* new plimsoles my mum bought me

last cd played: wildhearts one i'm listening to now, "earth vs the wildhearts"

last item bought: some sweets yesterday

last downloaded: iowaska- "modranicht"

last annoyance: earlier, arguing with my dad

last disappointment: today, when ginger, sean's rabbit, wouldn't let me pick him up! lol, sorry can't think of anything better..

last soda drank: vanilla coke with brandy, with sean

last thing handwritten: a letter i wrote a few days ago, then burnt today

last word spoken: "ok" to my mum

last sleep: slept til 11 today..

last im: last night with sean and sam bryant

last weird encounter: i think viv, a few weeks ago cos he's chopped off all his sexy long hair and got himself some little 14 yr old-stylee spikes. and i don't like it.

last ice cream eaten: when i went round to james's house ages ago. i don't really like ice cream, but it was strawberry flavoured.. hmmmm

last amused: watching the film earlier

trippin on drugs? no, i'm completely normal right now..

last time hugged: today, by sean

last time scolded: today by my dad

last chair sat in: the computer chair!

last lipstick used: lipgloss

last shirt worn: i'm wearing a black shirt at the moment

last time dancing: must have been a few weeks ago at esquires

last poster looked at: all the ones at roy's house, he's got loads of cool posters of films/band/porn

last show attended: some punk band (esq).. can't remember the name.

last webpage visited: http://geocities.com/ukriotgrrrl/

1 MINUTE AGO: i said hi to my dad

1 HOUR AGO: i was eating my tea

1 DAY AGO: i was at sean's... big surprise there!

1 WEEK AGO: erm i feel ashamed to admit this but i was at sean's once again, i'm sure of it. i went round to his house

1 YEAR AGO: i was naively thinking i didn't need to do revision for my AS levels. oh, how i was wrong..

current clothes: black cords, black top with red seams, black bangles, black socks, pink and white underwear!

current mood: tired at prospect of going back to school, worried too

current music: wildhearts

current taste: the pasta i ate earlier.. hmm

current hair: loose, still recovering from sean completely back combing it earlier

current annoyance: school tomorrow

current smell: the conservatory

current thing I should be doing: revising, definately

current desktop picture: a huge scary emu

current refreshment: none

current worry: er a few too many to list.

1. What do you most like about your body? my ankles- thinnest part of me, lol

2. And least? hm, i could go on about loads of stuff here, but apart from that, i'd quite like to be a couple of inches taller

3. How many fillings do you have?: none

4. Do you think you're good looking?: sometimes

5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? sometimes, it usually happens at night when i look better
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(no subject) [Apr. 17th, 2004|06:57 pm]
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[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |richard lloyd- heart of gold (cover)]

there are two pheasants in the garden- they're a couple and they feed here everyday, and it's sad cos i swear they have more of a life than i do.

i duno what to do. it's ellie's 18th birthday party and i should go, but i can't, i feel too sick to go. but then again, my parents have a big dinner party on tonight and i can't face having them and their (loud) friends in the house and making polite conversation and shit.. chloe's out tonight, but i don't think she's overly keen to hang out with me right now, so i don't think there's a lot of point, plus i don't think i'm up for spending an evening in the town centre with loads of people around. i'd quite like to see sean but then i think we both need a break from each other, after spending so long with each other today/yesterday (and indeed most of my holiday). i don't kno where we stand with each other, i kno we're just friends, and that's all we want it to be, but sometimes i jus remind myself how weird it is. anyway, i don't want to speculate on that. i might jus go for a drive, but i have NO petrol and no money so it might be hard! i think i have just enough to get to the petrol station in bromham, but even that is pushing it cos the light has been on for fucking ages. i couldn't put any in due to the lack of money, which is so frustrating as i have £15, i jus can't get it- i have £5.75 in one account, and fucking £9.90 in the other! i mean i'm a whole 10p short of a stupid tenner :(
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(no subject) [Apr. 17th, 2004|02:36 pm]
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(no subject) [Apr. 15th, 2004|11:25 pm]
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[mood |IN PAIN!]
[music |king adora- bionic]

i never thought i'd be so pleased to get my period. thank god for excess blood and stomach cramps.

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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2004|11:50 pm]
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Today was really tiring.
I got out of bed really early because I had terrible stomach cramps.

I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.

I'm so happy. I just found out that I have been accepted into Harvard. And Yale. I don't know which to choose... oh, why is life so hard sometimes?

Last night I had to shave my entire body. Apparently, the lice that I caught from Amanda's friend are really hard to get rid of. I look quite strange with no hair and eyebrows. I'd post pictures, but my webcam is broken.

I want to tell the world that I'm gay.

I am updating this journal for the first time in ages, because I've been in prison.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! But I don't know how to work it. Can you help me?

I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with bipolar disorder.

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you next week's lottery numbers.


That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2004|04:03 pm]
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[mood |apatheticapathetic]
[music |wildhearts- tv tan]

*yawn* i'm an ickle bit bored, too tired to try and take more french in..
i'm tired actually just watching my parents working in the garden! i jus spent 20mins trying to morph the lightning strike in between the AC/DC logo into a treble clef. in my head it works, but it doesn't in practice, or not at least according to my limited artistic talents.. decided i definately am going to get my treble clef tattoo on my arm. eep.
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